Self Control

One of the Fruits of the Spirit is Self-Control. Self control conjures in my mind images wholly different from God-control. What self is it exactly that God wants me to have control over?

Is it the flesh? The physical body and it’s sway toward sin? Or is it the soul? The mind, will, and emotion that makes us tick? Or is it the spirit, the dwelling and interaction place of God?

It must be the denial of the flesh. Self-Control is the ability to resist tempting situations and put one’s self in subjection to something contrary to what it would want otherwise.

But wait one moment. I came at this all wrong. Self-Control is a Fruit of the Spirit and the Spirit is God’s department. It isn’t my job, nor is it in my ability, to consistently demonstrate control over my self.

Therefore, if Self-Control is only exhibited when I am in the Spirit, being truly self-controlled is being God-controlled.


I have always thought that “sharing my faith” meant telling people about the faith that I’m a part of. It meant I had to gloss it up and put God’s “best foot forward”. I had to explain what perfect faith looks like and be a perfect example of that faith. With this mentality, evangelism is impossible.

But that is not what God meant when he said “make disciples of all nations”. To make what I say mean anything to anyone, it has to be true of myself and real in my experience. If I struggle with a good God that let’s bad things happen, then how can I possibly give the Sunday School answers to a grieving mother and hope that it will ease her pain?

I’ve had this vision of faith as some kind of “perfect other”, a place I go for a little while, if I’m good,
and meet God. But if faith is real, it has to be real always and forever. So faith won’t always be perfect, it won’t be pretty and precise. It will be dirty sometimes and that’s okay.

My Life as a Christian Wannabe

I was raised in a Christian home with Christian relatives and Christian friends. From the moment I could understand the English language I have been spoon fed Christian values. This does not aggravate me, but up until a few years ago I have never been asked to think for myself about spiritual issue.

This blog is my attempt to spread everything Christian in my brain on the table, sort through it, and make it my own.

Therefore, may the gray matter be spread…